~DigitalScorpion

I have come to the frustrating realization that there is not much else I can do at this point. I've lost a dear friend, my best friend, that has seen me through a lot in my life. We had a strong love for each other that branched out of the norm and even though at some points we wanted to rip each other's eyes out, we made it work. I regret nothing of our relationship only that the poor decisions we made (myself primarily) lead to the destruction of that relationship. I have nothing to prove, I have nothing to say other than this: I am sorry, I wanted to keep each other a part of our lives. Sadly I fear that will not longer be possible. This is my proclamation. I can only wait for the tides to wash as they will at this point. I love everything you did for me and I love the way we were able to grow together throughout out toughest times. I always said I refused to let go, because I do want you to be a part of my life. Though despite my efforts I have been shunned. This being my last stand and pouring my thoughts that I have held silent for so long. That is all I can do at this point.

So I'm in graphic design not paying any attention whatsoever and I am thinking about leaving.

Anyway, I've got some new ideas and wanted to get some input. As of now I'm promoting Necrotic Designs more around the Fresno State campus and I've thought about bringing the snow kids into a more "commercial" environment by selling them through Necrotic. Also I want to bring out jewelry and more stickers for sale. I want to start making it less "single piece" t shirts and more clothing design sort of... Hard to explain. I just want to offer more than what I have. Initially I don't think this is a bad idea, though I DO need to figure out the best way to accomplish this. Also still working out the logistics of a snow kids plush figure which is proving to be harder than I thought. New piece in the works that is taking WAY longer than I'd expected as well, though I am EXTREMELY pleased with it. I need to get a new printing company though other than Zazzle due to the size limitation.

So what do those of you who read this think of the ideas? Jewelry, stickers, cell phone backgrounds and computer wallpapers etc. Just ideas to get the name out there. I'm also going to start a myspace page for Necrotic with some of my "homemade" techno/dance stuff I've made in my spare time along with art and other things. Big ideas, hoping it works out. Throw in your 2 cents!

I'm tired, but I don't feel like sleeping. I have a lot on my mind. I've got work that needs to be done for class that I'll be doing later today, then I need to make a decision on what I'm going to do in regard to the promotion of Necrotic. I'm getting new stickers made and a few shirts to hand out around campus/wear myself. We'll see how that goes. I need to get the name out there more. I'm just too timid I think. The ironic part is I'm not so much concerned with critics as I've dealt with my fair share, as I am about feeling (in my own mind) a failure. However I am aware if you do not try then technically you have already failed. It's a difficult subject to deal with for myself as I have trouble forcing myself to do things. Oh well, I'm hoping sleep will remedy this. I've got some better ideas for new shirts that will offer more on them rather than just a "piece of art on a shirt". Hopefully touching more on the design element than the fine art element. I hope to create a harmony between the two. We'll see how that turns out. Anyway, thank you to everyone who has supported me as always.

[link] - Be a cool kid.

I have a headache. Some new art in the works. Nothing entirely special. Watching a movie. Guess I'll go back to that.

So I was lucky enough to get a new wacom tablet for christmas from my parents. So happy they got it for me too. I love it. Intuos3 9'x12'. It's fucking awesome. New work coming with it as well since I've been able to somewhat recreate the ballpoint pen look I do by hand on corel painter IX. So... Hopefully I'll have a few new things on top of what I've just posted. Enjoy and have a happy new year.



As always:

Necrotic Designs - Wear Your Sins